I slept 'til 3:30 a.m. again and woke feeling so hungry. Of course, all the snacks (Ramen noodles, etc.) were packed in my luggage. I had a couple of banana's that I brought up to the room from breakfast yesterday. So I ate one of those. Wow, they are so sweet and so less banana tasting here. Oh and I love these hard China beds! I remember I loved them last time I was here, but you never get used to plopping down on the very puffy duvet only to feel a thud. LOL... I don't feel like I've slept soundly yet; it's like I can't turn off the sounds or conversations in my head and I'm only having a "surface" sleep. It's as if, my eyes are closed from exhaustion, but more like when you're trying to sleep when a tv is on in the background. So far, there's been no wimpering coming from Meiying during her sleep, but twice she called out (in a light, happy way, but definitely asleep) "mommy". I think that's good. She doesn't refer to her foster mom as mommy...that's always "ma-maa" (sounds like an italian). So since she said "mommy" she must've been calling to me or dreaming about me, right?
The comments from you all are giving me strength. Mom, Jennie, Cilla, I was so happy to finally have heard from you. I started crying, of course, but your words did give me strength. I was laughing about your not-so-subtle name hint of Vera mom. Many have asked how I'm holding up. That's not coming thru in my writing? Ha, ha... I'm doing ok. I really am. I just got a phone call from my caseworker at our adoption agency (all the way from the US). She had been following my blog too and she was checking in on me. That was sooo nice of her. She reasurred me that this is normal and even my feelings are normal.
Meiying is awake now, we're going to eat. This breakfast buffet is not very western and there's not much I can eat off of it. I better lose weight this trip. I'm absolutely starving. The McD's is tasting good though and the Pizza Hut last night was delicious. Ha, ha...I took a flight to China...to eat American food!
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
Hunger and ramblings
Posted by The Ordinary Horse at 7:37 PM