Happy 5th birthday my sweet Eliza!
(above; Eliza at Jump Zone for her class "sensory" field trip last week)
Eliza loves jumping, sliding, climbing, dancing...MOVING.
I'm going to bring my camera to OT this week to capture some of the fun.
Just like with swimming, she comes alive during these moments.
(above; not the best picture, but the first of this series...notice her neck; she's lost that baby-fat appearance)
...I'm always smooching on Eliza's cheeks;
I love the shape of her face!
I kiss her and kiss her
and tell her I love her until
she finally nods her head
while saying "mmmommm"
(interpret, "yeah, I know mom")
and then pushes me away.
Eliza has grown up so much.
I boo-hoo'd last night
while looking at our pictures
from her first year home.
That was the year before "A" as in autism.
I just wish I could hear her thoughts...
with my ears.
To live with a silent child is sometimes a blessing,
I know, for I have other children whom I sometimes wish would be silent.
But to never hear with your ears
what your child is thinking,
feeling, seeing, needing...
well, it's a different kind of relationship.
It changes you.
It does make me sad, I'll admit.
It makes you tap into other senses though.
When I have a day where my other kids make me throw my arms in the air
or lay in bed at night questioning how I parented them that day,
having a silent child named Eliza, ironically brings me a peace.
Happy birthday my sweet, precious daughter
who can't tell me that I'm being a bad parent!
That's golden, c'mon admit it!
And some Chinese New Year photos...
(above; Ava with her BFF Lizzie)
(above; can't exclude Eliza from the festivities;
Eliza's dress was clearly purchased 3.5 years ago when she was an itty-bitty toddler!!!
Note the shiney paper lanterns on our mantel;
we made these in Ava's class when her teacher asked me to come in
and help celebrate Chinese New Year.)